Description
In the quiet, lonely hours of the middle of the night, a woman scrolls social media on her phone. Babies are everywhere. All her friends seem to have one. But she is full of doubt - just the creep sniffing at the window. How can she consider the enormity of new life when the world outside is burning?
Besides, there's something wrong in her body. She can feel it: pain, a constant dull ache she is too frightened to investigate.
And then there's something darker, pulsing beneath the surface, threatening to catch up with her. Hers is a life deeply affected by grief and chaos; the death of her mother, a long buried sexual assault, and a drawn-out affair with a married actor of middling fame and maximum ego - full of glamour, hedonism, obsession and control.
Is it possible to rebuild, when all you feel is lack?
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'A stunning poet and an equally gorgeous storyteller. I love everything Cecilia Knapp writes' HOLLIE MCNISH
'Cecilia Knapp is a great writer. I love her' KAE TEMPEST
'I really love Cecilia's writing. It's sharp. Cuts to the quick. And offers my favourite thing, a real insight into the minds of women and all the things we don't often get to say out loud' SALMA EL-WARDANY
The poignant new literary fiction novel for 2026
About the Author
Poet and novelist Cecilia Knapp was the Young People's Poet Laureate for London in 2021 and shortlisted for the Forward Prize for best single poem in 2022. Her debut poetry collection PEACH PIG was published in 2022 and her debut novel LITTLE BOXES was longlisted for the Authors Club First Novel Award in 2023. Her poems have appeared in Vogue, the Financial Times, Granta and The White Review. She curated the anthology Everything is Going to be All Right: Poems for When You Really Need Them. Cecilia teaches creative writing in a number of settings and she is an ambassador for the mental health charity CALM.
Reviews
Praise for Cecilia Knapp:
'Cecilia Knapp is a rare, rare talent. The sort of writer you get excited to have found and then look forward to devouring more of their work.' KERRY HUDSON
'A spectacularly talented writer' DAILY MAIL
'Knapp writes with a light touch' GUARDIAN
Book Information
ISBN 9780008766108
Author Cecilia Knapp
Format Hardback
Page Count 272
Imprint The Borough Press
Publisher HarperCollins Publishers
Weight(grams) 380g
Dimensions(mm) 222mm * 141mm * 32mm
