I deserve all this because I did the worst thing a woman can do. The very worst. Jessica's wedding was like a fairytale. Her dress strewn with crystals. Her dad made a tearful speech. Her husband Matthew declared himself the luckiest man alive. But when their beautiful baby girl is born, Jessica is gripped by panic. She can't tell anyone how she feels. Even when her life starts to spiral out of control... This is her story. A mother's story.

Jessica is expecting her first child. But why isn't she transformed by maternal feelings? Where is the all-consuming love she's supposed to feel for her child? No-one told her you don't always love your baby. Perhaps its best if Jessica keeps that dark secret to herself for now...

About the Author
Amanda Prowse is the author of several novels including the number 1 bestsellers What Have I Done?, Perfect Daughter and My Husband's Wife. Her books have sold millions of copies worldwide, and she is published in dozens of languages. Described by reviewers as 'the queen of family drama', Amanda's characters and stories are often inspired by real life issues. The research for her books has led to partnerships with ITV and Femail among others. Amanda lives in Bristol with her husband and two sons. As her many twitter followers know, she almost never switches off. But when she does, she can be found drinking tea in her favourite armchair, scribbling ideas for her next book.

Reviews
Prowse handles her explosive subject with delicate skill... Deeply moving and inspiring' * Daily Mail *
A powerful page-turner * Closer *
Uplifting and positive, but you may still need a box of tissues * Hello *
A deeply moving and eye-opening tale about a struggling mum * Heat *
A difficult, important and compelling read * Miscrawl *
By far Amanda Prowse's best novel to-date * The Last Word *
A page-turner, difficult to put down, brilliantly written in an accessible style and language... I cannot speak too highly of this book' * LoveReading *
An incredible, powerful and emotional story that will have you gripped from the very first page' * Laura's Little Book Blog *
Full of raw emotion, this sensitive exploration of mental illness is a real tear-jerker * Sunday Mirror. *
The evocative novel gave me an understanding of a difficult and tragic subject... Brilliantly written, the characters are likeable and I couldn't put it down' * Prima Baby & Pregnancy. *



Book Information
ISBN 9781781856604
Author Amanda Prowse
Format Paperback
Page Count 368
Imprint Head of Zeus
Publisher Bloomsbury Publishing PLC