The real, untold, and unvarnished story of life inside the legendary Playboy Mansion-and the man who holds the key-from the woman who was Hef's #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's #1 girlfriend. But like Alice in Wonderland after she plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion-including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show-quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex and the infamous parties, as well as what her relationships with her Girls Next Door co-stars, Bridget and Kendra were really like. Holly talks candidly about a subsequent abusive relationship, her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams-and finding the life we deserve.

About the Author
Holly Madison spent five seasons on the #1 rated E! hit reality show The Girls Next Door before landing the leading role in the Las Vegas strip's smash hit , Peepshow. She also starred in two seasons of her own hit E! series Holly's World. Madison divides her time between Las Vegas and Los Angeles with her husband and daughter.

Reviews
"Reads like a celebrity memoir infused with The Bell Jar and Going Clear." -- Buzzfeed



Book Information
ISBN 9780062372116
Author Holly Madison
Format Paperback
Page Count 352
Imprint Dey Street Books, an imprint of HarperCollins US
Publisher HarperCollins Publishers Inc
Weight(grams) 356g
Dimensions(mm) 205mm * 137mm * 28mm