THE INSTANT SUNDAY TIMES BESTSELLER

'Brutally honest as well as poetic' DOLLY ALDERTON
'Necessary, urgent and totally original' AFUA HIRSCH
'Essential reading for men of all ages' CALEB FEMI

Someone once asked me how I'd want to be remembered. I said, 'As the boy who grew.'

Love is a gift, isn't it? From our early childhood years to growing up and pairing off, it's a feeling we chase knowing we're better off with it. But what if love is claustrophobic and conflicting? And what if at the same time we're chasing addictions to drugs, drink, sex and chaos?

Diagnosed twice with ADHD, Jordan Stephens found his teens and twenties a whirl of career success and nurturing friendships but also a brutal pattern of self-harm, hedonism, destructive coping mechanisms and heartbreak. When he tried to live up to his own damaged expectations and his world exploded, he stepped away from his previous existence completely and allowed himself to explore the pain he'd repressed his entire life.

Unsparingly digging into the fear, tenderness and trauma he carried in his body and mind, and the confusing assumptions of what a young man should be, Jordan Stephens discovers what it means to be a modern man, why we should all open ourselves up to life, and how the price we pay for love in all its forms is worth it.

About the Author

Jordan Stephens is a writer and performer, best known as one half of the chart-topping duo Rizzle Kicks, who sold over a million records. Having been publicly open with his own struggles surrounding mental health, Jordan has been very active in creating awareness around the stigma. His mental health campaign #IAMWHOLE reached over 120 million people online and was mentioned in the Houses of Parliament. His children's book The Missing Piece was recently shortlisted for the Waterstones Children's Prize.

@jordanfstephens

Reviews
Necessary, urgent and totally original -- AFUA HIRSCH
Brutally honest as well as poetic -- DOLLY ALDERTON * * Guardian * *
Essential reading for men of all ages -- CALEB FEMI
Deeply personal * * Observer * *
Raw, funny, honest and neurodiverting -- MATT HAIG
Funny, shocking and downright fucked-up at times, it's like Jordan crawled into my brain and took notes. If you've ever had to overcome something in your life, this book is a must-read. Seriously, don't miss it! -- ASHLEY WALTERS
Impressively candid . . . A compelling insight into what it is like to be both an artist, and a heterosexual male, in the twenty-first century * * i * *
Beautifully written, lyrical, visceral, staccato, cathartic. Feels like late night deep chats and confessions with an old friend. I loved it -- JESSIE MEI LI
Jordan Stephens shares his life as a kaleidoscope adventure in full ADHD colour with immaculately told stories. What a glorious book, and what a journey -- KAT BROWN
Fizzes with vitality and urgency, and I was hooked from page one. A tale of hope and optimism, and a book that every man should read -- CHARLIE CONDOU



Book Information
ISBN 9781838858087
Author Jordan Stephens
Format Hardback
Page Count 304
Imprint Canongate Books
Publisher Canongate Books
Weight(grams) 411g
Dimensions(mm) 220mm * 141mm * 32mm